For some reason, your presence has been all about eagles. They are such a majestic creature to me. I feel strong when I think about them. I feel courageous, like I can navigate any obstacle. Your grandma Harris gave me one recently, and as soon as I looked at it, I thought of you. Each time I hold it, I think that it’s you somehow. Not sure what that means. I’ve really kept it close to me the last couple of days. A cloud has been following me for the past 3 days. I’m not sure what it is. Something negative? Something unresolved? An imbalance? All I know is that when I hold that eagle, I feel better. And I think of you.

I ordered some border wallpaper for your room. I am trying to decorate it with you in mind, but its sure not babyish. There are 3 pictures – a bear, a wolf and its cub, and an eagle. Under the bear it says ‘strength’. Under the wolves it says ‘courage’, and under the eagle it says ‘freedom’. And the colour of the paint is called “Naturally calm”. They are reminders for myself right now, but one day I hope they’ll be meaningful to you.

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